Jealousy is a very bad thing

Okay,
If your over someone you shouldn't get jealous of them, right? I mean, now that I have Ryan I shouldn't give a shit about Mark, RIGHT?
Ahh I'm so confused.
I get so jealous when he hugs other girls.
But whyy? I don't like him anymore!
He's a an ugly, mean, jerky, man whore!

I wonder how long its gonna take for me to believe those words :/

& on top of that, when I was talking to my friend Natalie on thursday at my house I said I liked Ryan MORE which was after we were talking about Mark.
MORE??!?!?!?!
Does that mean I still like Mark but I don't wanna admit it to myself?
WHAT THE HELLLLL!!!!

Ughh I'm so confused.
So lets talk about Ryan :]

Basically I'm supposably the first girlfriend he's ever actually liked. Usually he justs asks girls out to have a gf. But Tess is one of his closest friends and he told her that he really does like me a lot. He even wrote my name on his backpack strap! Awwww :D

On his left backpack strap it says I <3 Guys which was a joke cuz his friend wrote it there. On his right one it says Tara. So yesturday he pointed to the I & <3 then he went to the Tara and then to the Guys. So he basically said "I love Tara, guys!"
AWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!

I am very happy :]